Now I have one more memory of a world that was about to end
Only to be brought back to the loneliness I spend

Oldest memories of a time long ago
I thought was just a dream set aglow.

Water surrounds the world I see
and it was closing in on me.

The red of blood through waters deep
draw closer now with no sound to speak.

A symbol now is what does reveal and spark
A wavy shape, I see, of two white crossed marks.

II

If not a dream, then what memory
And what does this memory mean?

The truth be known in later years
That it was a memory with tears.

My oldest memories that haunts me to this day
Is of a time where death called but I got away.

For I fell into a pool as a young baby of three
And to the bottom sinking down soft and free.

As a gallant man jumped in to save the young lass
And he wore swimming trunks of red with white crosses

A thing that was in my mind now and then
that would haunt me for all time and again.

Some go past the point, where it is all in the mind,
That is what I did, but thanks to my son I am not dead.
For it was his voice I heard, from half way around the world,
I love you Mom, don’t leave Me., is all he said.

Red hair and blue eyes you see, we agree.
But the inside is where it’s unseen.
You said you want to know about me.

Happy inside and a smile for free,
And being mean, is never routine.
To know me is more than you can see.

I read of the Titanic at sea
And even dream of being a Queen.
You said you want to know about me,

My tact is of very high degree,
A diplomat is where I am keen.
To know me is more than you can see.

And this I can surely guarantee,
I am more than a girl in a scene,
You said you want to know about me,
To know me is more than you can see.

You would have thought I had learned my lesson.
But no!  A second marriage begun
It was doomed like the first
And even got much worse
So the judge made the marriage undone.

Now you would think third time is a charm
A old boyfriend so what was the harm?
But this was not so good,
Trying all that I could,
I could not take that funny farm.

I swore to never marry again,
I did not want to handle more pain.
And my dad said no more,
I can not take a four,
Down the aisle once more, it is insane.

But over time a wedding did prevail,
Even dad liked is guy is the tale.
So I listened to my heart,
Which was a new life start,
And over time we will we what does prevale..

So maybe you can listen and watch them all,
From you own little corner of this new place.
A person goes by with a dog walking alone,
You wave to say hello, even doing that is hard,
Because you know it might be just a matter of time,
Before they find out what you don*t know.

But for now you a safe, cause they don’t know
That the words they speak you don’t know at all.
But you know it will show the very first time,
They try to converse with you in this new place.
But you get some nerve and tell yourself; it’s not hard,
And you try to overcome the feeling of being alone.

So again you sit on the porch all alone,
And start to get comfortable with the area you know,
As that person comes out the house slamming the door hard.
At this point you hope they don’t notice you at all,
And you lucky, as they start working around their place,
They stop that and start washing their car this time.

So you relax and get comfortable again over time,
So music starts to play, but it makes you feel more alone.
As it does not use your words, but music from this new place.
So you convince yourself, it is OK cause one day I will know
And maybe then I won’t feel like an outcast at all,
But for the moment this is all very hard.

Suddenly the music is so very loud and hard,
So you go into the house for some quiet time
But the music is blaring and inside is not quiet at all
But you can’t tell them to lower the music, cause you’re alone
And nothing of the language do you know.
So all you can do for now just wait and put up with this place.

It is so hard, to be on you’re own and alone,
But over some time, you will come to know,
That you’re not at all – alone in your new place

One day my love was there for me to see
The next it is all gone and tossed aside
No matter how much I want, wish or plea
I know that love I had, has up and died

I still love you and I know you love me
But it will never be the same as when
Before my ears had heard the words from thee
Those small words hurt me over and again.

I wish at times I was blind to all this
For I do miss you’re love and our sweet bliss.